Basically for the past week I’ve been having these awesome dreams…and then there’s those awkward ones with just plain weirdness going on…but seriously if all that good stuff were to actually happen in my dream, then I’ve got one hell of a good kiss coming my way and one fantastic summer haha.

Last night, while fun, was also full of many awkward moments.

The main one of the night was having the guys in our group (my friends fiance and their friend) doing gentlemenly things… like pulling out chairs, opening doors, paying for drinks.

I AM NOT USED TO THIS! They kept teasing me because I’d open my own door before realizing that they opened one for me.

Awkward moment 2? my friend said something about how she has this weird plan for all of us girls to go out to a club and be sexy looking but “we will all have boyfriends so that the guys in the club will try to hit on us and we can say “no sorry i have a boyfriend”” dont ask me lol.. its her dream

but i looked at her for a moment before i laughed and said “im sorry… but do you really see me ever having a boyfriend; ever?” she just laughed and said “well yeaah…duh!”

awkward moment number 3? when two of the guys were talking about having “swag and charm” with the ladies and one of them asked if i would ever date one of them for their “swag” and i politely said a guy with their charm yes…but not the guy they were talking about because they are already in relationships and hey… im sorry but not my type. (i just said no im sorry).

but they were totally cool with it, laughed and said “i wouldnt expect you to…you’re way out of my league..”

i was like woah wait..what?! Youre just being nice…way too nice. you’re exaggerating.

i never hear things like that nor do i expect to. i’ve rarely if ever heard a guy tell me that … and i’ve never had a guy hold a door or pull out my chair or offer to pay for a meal/drinks.

it was like a total twilight zone! And these are guys that are already in relationships and they are STILL treating all the ladies in the group kindly!

Maybe I’ve just met some shit guys int he past… or maybe because i got too conditioned from my asshole ex to not expect things like that and expect to always be treated like shit..maybe i’m just too damn independent.. but at the end of the night all i could say was “jeepers! is this how a girl is supposed to be treated?!”

(this went on much longer than i intended it to… but ooo well!)